As I sit here on this freezing night writing to you all. I am yet to wonder a lot of things in life. Small things to big things. I have been reading The Duggars 20 and Counting. I love this family and not just on the fact that they have so many children and stay sane but the fact that they are great people. There book unlike their show goes more in depth of who they are and what they stand for. They have opened my eyes more in the way the lord wants us to be. Not that the book is preachy at all. I really feel inspired by them and have been trying to be better. I know mother hood is hard and boy at times harder then we think we can handle but you know we come threw, we always do. Now tho I want to come threw better I want my children to be better then me and to learn from me to be that better person. Example I have noticed the big one yelling a lot lately and saying he is angry. I thought about this and he is just acting like me. So I prayed to god to help me and give me some extra strength to handle my anger. You know this may sound weird but I really feel like he has been helping me. I find I am not yelling as much and trying to get him to calm down easier by talking with him instead of yelling at him.
Brody is now pulling himself up on things and crawling all around. I can not leave him for a moment. The hardest is at bed time he keeps pulling himself up on his bed and crying because he don't know how to get himself down. My book I love to reference back to says to let him cry and figure it out but it is so hard. I usually can let him cry it out. I am a big fan of cry it out. I just have a hard time when I know he is holding on to the bed for dear life and does not know how to bring himself back down. So I am lost as to what to do with him for the moment on this matter. I think I may have to buck it up and let him cry it out.
Carson surprised me this weekend and sat on Santa's lap. Boy if he only knew his momma would of rather of died then go near the man. He is such a big boy!!! Oh and I still hate going near him or even clowns for that matter LOL. He is excited about Christmas he is counting down the days. I wish it wasn't going to be here so soon tho. I love having the tree up and all the lights it is so warm and cozy to look at. Well I better go I am getting tired and still have so much to do. Till next time. Have a great night and stay warm!!!!
